So today we had to fill in our AP test scantron thingy's... It took me 30 minutes and yet I had to come to school two hours before it even started!!!! That's fucked up. So I didn't kno what to do.... I didn't kno where to go. I then decided to walk over to my old middle school which was across the street. Walking over, I got a feeling. It was a good feeling, like a feeling of freedom. It was good to kno that I could [at this time] walk anywhere without a single person caring about what I was doing. Freedom... Anyway, so I walked to the back because I knew that if I were to walk through the school, somebody would be on my tail and freaking out on me. Besides, the teacher I wanted to see was in the back, in a separate building. I go to the building and I see this kid walk in to the teacher's classroom and there on the outside of the door is a sign that say "TESTING DO NOT DISTURB." Damn TAKS testing. I was pissed, so then I just walked back to my school and did nothing. Classes were dumb today, especially since it was a half day. One thing that really sticks in my mind today is when I was standing in front of our band teacher's office with one of my friends showed me the shorts she made in home ec. class. They were very... well, not flashy, but OUT THERE. And they were very short. So I looked at her and I go U WHORE! Just playing around w/ her. She laughed, I laughed and then I look in the band office and see that my band instructor, Ms. Vowels, looking at me as if she had heard what I had just said. At that point, I wanted to run. See, Ms. Vowels has this way of making you feel so LOW and terrible about yourself and it's just depressing. She doesn't even have to say anything, it's just a look she gives. Not to mention Vowles doesn't care too much for me. I hate disappointing her or pissing her off. It's just not good. And knowing that I've done this, it freaks me out even more because of the fact that they recently told us that they are "downsizing" varsity marching band. We now have to try out for varsity which has never been done for band. And it's not just going to be about how good of a marcher you are, but you're also going to be judged on past performance. Plus if I want to be voted as an officer or drum major later on, then I've got to have a good rep. Oi...

I need to stop writing long entries.