One of my friends (Susanna) from Finland who's been living on my block for a few years, left to go back to Finland today. It was sad. We had a party for her during advisory. I wasn't all that sad at first. Then, when school was out, we were still in our 8th period classroom and we were all saying goodbye to her. I was sad, but stil not as sad as I probably should have been...I wasn't crying or anything, that's what I mean. And then I saw my friend, Ye-Jee, and she was like (I forget exactly what she said, but it went somethin like this) "Meredith, I feel bad for you. First her, and then I'm gonna be gone at the end of the year." And then a tear fell down Ye-Jee's face. She was crying! I was so surprised by that... neither her or I was that good of friends with Susanna, we'd known her for a long while though...

and then I felt really bad. Ye-Jee was like, don't feel bad think happy thoughts. (Yeah, like that ever works). So I had to go to the band hall and I was putting my sax together (for sectionals) and she left. ANd then, I couldn't stop myself. I began to cry. I had to run outside so nobody would see me, but that wasn't smart because all of the football players saw me then.

It wasn't just the fact that Susanna was gone, but it was also the realization of how hard it's going to be to let Ye-Jee go when she leaves at the end of the year...

ahhhh! Too much sadness....I've got to go...