I hate school! When I get out of high school, I'm heading straight for acting auditions. Can't stand school. People suck, teachers need to drop dead, and the guy I like I haven't talked to in almost a year. It's an incredibly long story. You wanna' know the facts? You can email me at Skatrgrlmlw@hotmail.com. I'm a great person for advice, plus I need advice, too. Don't be shy, I don't bite! That's my motto!

There was this guy at my school. He was so sweet and always had good advice for me. He was older than me but I could tell, my friends could tell, his friends could tell that he was always flirting with me. Even my gym coach thought he liked me. Crazy huh? But I can't figure him out. I know now that my chances with him now are slim to none, but I've been dying to find out if he did like me or not. He complimented me on my hair, he talked to me all the time, even though he was older than me and we hardly new each other. I've been thinking about him everyday since then. SO did he like me? If you think so, email me please at Skatrgrlmlw@hotmail.com

I hate school more than anything in my life! I have 3 projects due this week! If anybody's got some good jokes or just wants to talk would you email me?! Skatrgalmlw@hotmail.com I feel depressed.On the outside I seem like a perfectly happy and normal person, but on the inside, I'm crying. My family isn't helping, they're only making matters worse by turning all of my mistakes into the worst things I could have possibly done in my life. For some reason, everytime I just say something or do something (even if it's a small thing) they lecture me and insult me about it. I feel like running away. I think I will. I don't know where I'd go. Maybe Canada? I have some family up there. Or N. Carolina. I don't know. I'll think about it  more.

 Why are boys such lying, backstabing, deceitful people? Or at least the boys at my school? Anyway write more later!

 I just found out who Julian Sark is from ALIAS! It's David Anders! He's hot! Except when he was on charmed. That was weird.

   He makes me laugh! I saw him in some of the bloopers on Season 3 Alias, he's hilarious! Gawd!!!! He's to die for! Man I wish I was Lauren in season 3. He's got a cute accent and he's got that boyish charm that makes you want to giggle (hehe:)) I wish I could meet him. Voice your oppinions!

I just found out that my Future Problem Solving Team is going to Austin, Texas for the state competition! It's confusing, but sooooo exciting. I just got in to it so I didn't think I was going to go, but my team pulled through with the most points at the state qualifier out of 7th and 8th! We're so happy! I'm going to stay in Austin for 3 days. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I've been trying to find some free, simple, magic spells online. Not easy. Especially a love spell. Please HELP ME!

I just realized somethin'. Nobody know's anything about me!

Well, you can read my profile, but that's basically nothing.

My name's Meredith, I have two sisters, two half-brothers (who are way older than me by the way), two dogs, and (I have two everything HAHA) of course, my parents.

I'm a christian, I'm currently single :(, I'm ALMOST 13 (3 months away!), most of my friends are from foreign countries (which is cool because they teach me their languages) I have a crush on a guy who I haven't seen in a year yet he was my best friend, my parents are really strict and don't let me go anywhere (I'm practically tied to the house), my older sister (not the oldest though) is in college, I'm an anime freakazoid (yes that includes YU-GI-OH!, Sailor Moon, and Card Captors), I'm also a Star Wars freakazoid (seriously I'm thinking of every possible way to get into Episodes 7, 8, or 9) but my friends know nothing of this.

I cried at the end of TITANIC (Rose shouldn't have let go! *tear* sniffle), I HATED WILSON (and if you can't figure who that is then obviously you don't watch enough tv) because he was scary looking and he should have never floated away! I think Britney Spears looks like a

s!^t! Maroon 5 rox my sox off! Josh Groban is sooo beautiful... I mean his voice is, but he's also really hot! I hate school because students are gross and mean and if you turn in a paper late (for example: You have soccer and the game goes on past ten and you had to leave right after school and you didn't finish your homework, your teacher will say "Well you could have worked on it in the car" or " you could have worked on it when you were on the bench" or "you could have worked on it afterwards") your teacher will find every possible way you SHOULD have worked on it instead of accepting the fact that us students actually have lives!

My oldest sister (Ashley) and my brothers (Chris and Michael) are all married. My Grandpa on my dad's side died two years ago (I still cry about it at night, and whenever I listen to Josh Groban's "To Where You Are" it reminds me of him and I cry!). My grandpa on my mom's side was a bum so I do not shed tears for him.

My nickname is Mary Lou (and I like it so if u don't, tough!). I'm an ice skater and I play the Saxophone. I'm going to pursue an acting career (every other job just bores me out of my mind.)

I'm blue eyed and have Blonde hair. I have a Canadian heritage. I'm kind of... well... tolerant to look at.

I love these movies: Robots, Star Wars (all of them), Pirates of the Carribean, 50 First Dates, The Ring (hehe), Lord of the Rings, Aladdin.

I have more, but I will have to write later. Don't worry it's not a lot. And I love e-mails so email me at Skatrgrlmlw@hotmail.com

Sooo tired! I went on a walk with my family today (including my dogs). We walked up to SONIC and bought food. I got a chocolate shake!

We're supposed to play Cranium. I think that went out the door. But you never know.

My puppies (ROmeo and Max) are so tiring. They wouldn't stop pulling on their leashes or whining!

Yesterday I got a cool new haircut! If I can get a picture of my self on to the computer, I'll use it as my PROFILE picture! YEA!

Spring Break is almost over! And I haven't gotten to do all that I want to do. (TEAR =() I hope we go to MOUNTASIA tomorrow, since I wanted to go today. But noooooo. Nobody wanted to go today. My family makes me mad sometimes. Oh well. Time to catch up on me sleep.

Yea! Me and my sister are about to watch FRIENDS! We haven't gotten to do anything in a while. I know. So sad.

This week can not end! I don't want to go back to school. People are mean. But I have a new haircut to show off, so it won't be entirely  bad.

I just took a shower. YEA! I smell good again.

I just spent my night watchin' an old western with Jimmy Stewart and watching the 1st season of the MUNSTERS. How sad is my life.

My dad's birthday was yesterday. We went to Applebee's.

G2G. My sisters calling me. Have a great night... or day... or........

ok whatever.

For the past couple of days I've been asking my family to play CRANIUM. Not to entertain me, but to have a "family moment" but no one will do it and says that they can't entertain me all the time. COME ON! It's stupid. We never do anything together and now that I ask for us to do something, they're like "NO we're too cool for you" and I'm upset. I just wanted us to have a fun moment. Plus I love games. :)

I was playing HALO earlier with my sis.'s boyfriend and we were in a duel and he killed me 16 times and I killed him once. That's really sad.

I'll write more later. For now I'm going to go to www.neopets.com.

read this! Then tell me how you feel!

I pray for Pope John Paul II. I know he is on his way to heaven. I hope that the Lord God and Jesus welcome him with open arms and love. It was his time, however I wish it was not. I believe that we needed his wisdom and love for just a little longer. May God rest his soul...

Yay I'm happy! Today, I beat 3 8th graders in a playing test for the saxophone! Everybody cheered! I got a 103 on a math paper! Who's good? I did 10, YES, count them again, TEN axels during skating! It was fun! Too bad my coach didn't really see.

I'm supposed to go see a movie tomorrow. Hopefully FEVER PITCH! It seems like such a good movie. But I don't know if I'll have enough money. Maybe mom will lend me some. But I don't really expect that much.

Dad, who's been gone at college (don't worry, he's older than 30) is coming home tonight. Yay! I missed him. He's been in boston.

These are my puppies. They're so adorable! They got haircuts not too long ago though.

I wish I didn't have that weird dream last night. IT makes me shudder every time I think about it. It was like, I wanted to rent a movie, and I went and got a porn movie, and watched it. EWWWW! I was like "What the Hell is up with this?" I'm really scared now.

I'm really happy though, I'm 2nd chair in the saxophone part of Honors band, the varsity band of middle school. I don't know why they called it VARSITY though. It's dumb.

I'm goin to Austin, Texas this Friday for a FPS competition. I don't really want to go. It just takes so much time.

I'M A JUNIOR THESPIAN!!!!! We had our tryouts not last week but the week before, and I found out last monday. YEA!

Dude, I'm goin' to Austin, Texas tomorrow. YAY! I'm goin to be there for 3 days. I'll miss my family though.

I had another weird dream last night. I was at the movies when I saw the guy I like, but he kept avoiding me and I kept trying to talk to him. But he'd walk away! OHHHHH!!! I was angry!

Well I did good at skating today. Axel, big jumps with a lot of air, and faster spins.

I didn't do much today since we didn't have school.

I thought about the guy I liked today. I haven't seen him in a while, but I realized that I'm goin to see him in the fall because we're both in band. But I'm not going to say a lot more just in case if he were to look on here. OUt of paranoia-if that's how you spell it-or if that's even the right word.

I'm still waiting for my results on what I have if I'm really sick or somethin'. My side hasn't been hurting so I guess that's good.

My day was sucky. My math teacher telss me I'm not doing the work for the math problems right when I'm actually getting the correct answers...

My sister is having her problems with her roommate. Heather if you're reading this, you're a bitch who deserves to DIE!!!

I'm really tired.

There was an article in the newspaper about teens and blogs on xanga, and I have xanga and mindsay, my parents could find out about it and read it. IT's not for parents!!!

Somebody called me a gerbil, which brought back painful memories about my gerbil who died a week before school started.

My love, I think about you all the time.

My heart weeps because I can not see you

I love your voice,

Your smile,

Your kindness.

There's no one else like you in the world.

Memories of our past flood my mind.

My dreams are always about us.

I only wish they were true...

I have my saxophone tryouts tomorrow for band. I hope I stay in Honors band. I think I will since I'm second chair already, not trying to brag. I hope I don't screw up though. That would be pretty bad.

Thought about the guy I like today. Wish I didn't. It kills me that I don't get to see him that often!!

Today, I went to school and I forgot to wear tennis shoes or bring tennis shoes for gym. So I had to use someone's (don't know who's though -EWWWWW!-) shoes while barefoot. Yeah, I have huge blisters now.

Okay, so I had to run the mile today. I did a lot better than most of the girls. I ran it in 9 minutes, 6 seconds, which may not be the best, but, I did better than most people. Okay, so after that, I went and sat down by the fence because I was tired. Then, I got a really bad cramp and I couldn't get up to tell my coach (who's a B!%#h!) and I  could barely speak. It was SOOOO PAINFUL! And I began to cry. Then my stomach felt... queer... and the person next to me was like "Meredith, are you all right?" That's when I threw up. Not on her, but pretty damn close to her. I had to be rolled off in a wheel chair because I couldn't get up. Oh, the pain!!!

My puppies got their hair cut today. They're sooo adorable!

I saw it! Finally. I've been wating for a YEAR to see the third movie, and it was even better than I expected it to be. Lucas actually added some funny stuff, mainly in the beginning, but it was REALLY good. I loved this movie sooooo much, I would see it again and again and again if I could. But it was soooo sad, too. With Anakin falling, characters dying, and the fact it's the last to THAT series (but there are supposed to be 3 more). I actually cried! Especially when Padme's funeral came around. Oh don't be mad because I said that, we knew it was going to happen. But I couldn't take it, I just started bawling, I hated that part.

The fighting scenes were REALLY creative. The computer graphics... AWESOME!! I give this movie two thumbs WAY WAY UP!!!! So far, this is the BEST movie I've EVER seen!!!! Obi-Wan Kenobi... LOVED HIM!! Well, it's actually Ewan McGregor... but he was soooo good at his part, I think I'm like in LOVE witn him now. LOL!!! Like, he's still cute in those movies, but I think he's totally hot when he's just him self. But, either way, he was to DIE FOR!!!

Hayden Christensen... where do I begin with him? oh he is... just. AHHHH!!! I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH!!! He's a superhotty!! *wishin he was mine but still thinkin about Ewan* He's really good at the cryin stuff, and I honestly think he makes love scenes works. In the second movie, he's all boyish and cute and he's got this huge crush on Padme, and it's so sweet how he makes it all work. In this movie, he's all like... not hiding anything, kissin Padme all the time. There's one scene with him and her where he brings back that boyish charm around Padme, where it actually looks like he's in love with her. I was sooooooooo incredibly sad when I watched him fall, and that part where he loses his.... well, let's just say it was pretty graphic and it made me cry because of how I know he's turned evil and he's just..... ugh. There are no words, but it made me soo sad.

Natalie Portman, beautiful. Just wonderful. I was kinda' mad that Lucas didn't give her any huge parts. He kinda made her look... wimpy... hopeless. But either way, she's such a good actress. I'm jealous of her because of her beauty. She's lovely, she is a queen. I practically died when I watched her funeral part. It still kills me, how Anakin broke her heart. I hate that part. I knew it was going to happen, but it still kills me.

This weekend was SOOO depressing. On saturday night, my sister got a call from her boyfriend at midnight on our home phone. She had a horrible look on her face then and I asked what was wrong.

"Stephen Tucker died in Afghanistan." I immediately began to cry. Stephen Tucker was a good friend of my sister who had just turned 19 and had gone in to Afghanistan only in... what, February? It's unfair! I used to think that this war was necessary and that those who died did it for their country and died with honor, but ALL those thoughts went out the window. Why? Why him? He had JUST gone in to training. Now whenever I see a picture of him or talk about him, I'm gonna think "That man died before his life could even begin." I'm so angry! I want this war to end NOW!!

Yeah baby!!! I'm officially an 8th grader!!! But for now, no more school!!! WOOOOHOOOOOO!!! My last exams I didn't finish, but my teacher said she's only grading us on what work we've done, so it works out.

I went to two restraunts today, went grocery shopping, took my dogs to puppy day care

You scored as Padme Amidala.

OWEEE!!! My head hurts like crap! Why? because I have this stupid expander (my SECOND one) and it's been giving me headaches! And I'm literally seeing... like... stars? Or... shiny stuff. I don't know. I hate it though.

I went to Red Lobster today with my mom and my sister. We had fun. We talked a whole bunch about what's been going on. I had shrimp popcorn! Mmmm-mmm....

Anyway, back to reality. For the past couple of days I've been wakin up at 5 in the mornin and I just start coughing for two hours!! It's annoying. So, yeah. I'm really tired now! It sux, but I'm good.

I got my pictures back from my Future Problem solving trip. I am a REALLY bad photographer. My finger kept covering the lens!!! I'm never using a disposable camera again!! They suck!

I was thinking about my jazz camp I'm gonna have in a couple of weeks. I don't know if I'm going to be able to play very well, with my expander and all. Which would freakin suck. See, they're going to divide us up in to 4 bands: one for 10th through 12th grade, one for 8th through 10th, one for 8th, and one for 7th. Damn! I hope I get in the 8th through 10th grade band.

Oh, did I tell you that I'm going to be in honors band this year? And that I'm 1st chair?! SORRY! Had to gloat. hehe... Well, that's only because every other sax player is horrible, soo..

I'm scared about 8th grade. My electives are band, jazz band, and junior thespians (hooray!) But the classes are going to be soooo much harder. I'm so worried Oh well. I guess I'll just have to do my  best...

I was watching T.V. today, and I saw a commercial advertisement for STAR WARS! I hadn't seen one in weeks! It brought back images and reminded me about how sad it was! That was the best movie I've ever seen! I wonder if I'm gonna' cry when I see it again? I  mean, it was just SOOO well done.

I asked for the Star Wars ROTS music soundtrack for my birthday. I really liked the music in that movie!!! By the way, my birthday is coming up!!! This monday, June 13!! I can't wait!

I went shopping with my sister today. I got a cute pink skirt. I really like it. We went to this store called Papaya... I think. Well, it was a really nice store with a lot of good clothes. My sis got a couple of items.

My parents are watching "MY BLUE HEAVEN". I've watched part of it. I don't really remember it though.

Ok, GEICO is getting really weird with their commercials. They're driving me crazy!!!

Wow. That's weird. Somebody stole a BILBOARD sign that said "Jack Daniel's" something, something.... I mean, it's 80 lb.'s and it would have been really hard to get down. Why would somebody do that?

Does anybody believe we should renew the Patriot Act?

Man, I really love WILL AND GRACE. It's such a hilarious show! It's because of Will and Jack that I'm ok with gay and Illesbian people. I know that gay and Illesbian people can't control how they feel, and people shouldn't hate them for that. I mean, can you control how you feel about the guy/girl you like? How would you feel if some one came up to you and made fun of you and spoke out against you because you liked a certain person? It would suck, wouldn't it? And as a matter of fact, gay guys know style well! I applaud them. lol! But I'm not illesbian, so I'm kinda confused with why I'm even talking about it.

I must be dillusional or somethin'. It is past my "bedtime" after all.

My sister's boyfriend is going to be 21 soon. I don't know why I wrote that down. Maybe it's because she's talking about it? Dunno', don't care. My sister just turned 19 and she hates it. She just said that, too.

I just took an IQ test that took forever. And when I finally got to the end, I pushed that little button that says "FIND OUT YOUR IQ SCORE" and then it says "THIS PAGE IS NOT AVAILABLE". NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I'm soooo pissed! THat's not fair! Internet sux!!!!

So I watched this video recently called "The End of the World". It's hilarious. Has anyone ever seen it? Well, it's real funny. Just type in "The end of the world" at the little type/tool bar and it'll come up. It's really good. I had a good laugh at it.

I watched "The Empire Strikes Back" a couple of days ago. I don't know why. I got bored. Needed to refresh my star wars stuff. I'm such a freak for star wars, it's not even funny!

I'm going to update my fanfiction site soon. I just have to get the second chapter down. Don't worry, it'll come soon (to those who care :)). I have a really good plot planned out!!!! I think you guys will like it.

Anyway, it's late. I better get going. See ya'!

p.s. if anyone want to test me on STAR WARS trivia stuff, bring it on! Seriously, I'm a nerd who needs to get a life! hahahahahahlololololol

2.  What's your dream job?

Jedi. LOL. Just kidding! Actress.

3.  What one thing would you want with you if you were on a deserted island?

A  hot guy who never complains!

4.  Snow or rain?

Snow.

5.  Have you ever gone to any foreign countries?  If so, where?

Well, I've been to Canada. I don't know if that's far enough though! Hehe... he. Yeah, don't ask.

I have to volunteer at the library today for NJHS hours. MEH! Well, it kinda gets me out of chores, so I guess it's not that bad. I just hope I'm not going to have to do stupid stuff. I'm pretty good at organizing books. My sister told me to try to hack in to the computer to extend her due date on the book she's reading. LOL! I told her I'd look in to that.

It's been a few days since I've written. It feels like it's been forever, though.

Let me start off with what happened on Tuesday. I went swimming at my friend Doug's house and another on of my friends was there, too: Ryan. Ryan moved to a different house not too long ago. Now Ryan is the kind of guy who makes you laugh no matter what mood you're in. And he used to be my bf. It's a little weird whenever I hang out with him now.

So I hadn't really seen him in a little while, but when I saw him on tuesday, I realized that he was SOOO much taller than me! Just a few months ago, he was shorter!! So that kinda' drove me crazy. His voice is also a lot deeper. It used to be really high and squeeky!

After we'd been swimming a while at my friend, Doug's house, I got out of the pool to use the restroom. After I came back I decided I was done swimming. But Ryan was all like "No way! You're coming back in the pool!" He then pulled my towel off me, grabbed me by the arm, flipped me over his back, and (holding on to me) dunked me in the pool. He picked me up so easily! Man has he gotten a lot stronger!

The guys started to play a game where they had to hold on to me and see who could stay on longer. They had their... bodies pressed up against me and were holding on to me pretty tight. Oh, gosh! I wish they hadn't because Doug's mom kept coming out and would see that! I was so embarrassed. I couldn't get them off! Wah! It was really weird.

Ok, so I'm in the water practically drowning because these guys are holding on to me and making me sink. So put my arms around Ryan for 2 reasons. 1. I didn't want to do that to Doug just in case his mom would come out and 2. I had to grab on to something! I couldn't stay up on my own. Anyway I put my arms around him, as if it was a hug, or a slow dance thing. But when I did, it felt... weird. Like it was right; like it fit.

I hate that day! What I did and what they did was wrong! I was flirting like hell whith Ryan! I mean, I don't like him...

do I?

I found this fan-art of Anakin and Padme. I thought it was really cool so I decided to put it up on my blog. Whoever drew it is REALLY amazing and fantastic. I wish I was that good...

I checked out the book Star Wars: Episode I-The Phantom Menace  from the library, where I volunteered today. So far I've read a hundred pages. It's actually really good. But the script is off, so in my mind I'm always correcting it to the movie script. I found out in this book that Anakin (before Qui-Gon and every one else came to Tatooine) rescued a Tusken Raider after a rock tumbled on his leg. I know it's only a story, but that seems so sweet, considering how every one is always describing the Sand People as vicious animals, but he was brave and kind enough to lend a hand... I now realize I'm too obsessed and need to get a life.

Has anybody ever had a crush on their teacher? ARRGHHHH! I hate this feeling! where you really like your teacher, but you know you can't date him/her. WAHHHH! Well, at least it gets me over the other guy who I had a crush on for a year.

Anyway, I've only known him for a few days, and I'm not going to say who it is or how we met, just to be safe. He's actually only a few years older than me *is 7 a few years?* but he's so cool, nice, and amazing. I hate my self for having these thoughts about him, but unfortunately I do. Everytime I look at him, I want to die. And it's so dumb! I know that.

I can show you a picture of him. But only to a select few. Just email me at skatrgrlmlw@hotmail.com

Well. It's been... not that long since I've updated. Oh well. :)

It's the 4th of July, and we've done nothing except eat hot dogs. No singing, no dancing, no listening to patriotic music. Just treating it like another ordinary day. Oh well.

As I write this, I think about the guy I like. I think he's in Carrollton right now. Why? I can't say. But I do like to talk about him, so if you want to know why just email. And because I'm bored and have no one to talk to, so even if you have nothing to say about this topic, email me! skatrgrlmlw@hotmail.com            *sigh* my life is so sad. :(

I go to Canada in only 12 days! Wow, time flys by fast. My summer's almost over. NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! *sobs* (sniff sniff) I don't want to go back to school! IT'S EVIL!

I got tanner today. YAY!

This is me looking really ugly and opening up gifts on my birthday. I'm sorry people I was hoping you would never have to see my ugly face.

This is my sister and I. As you can see we're trying to kill each other while standing in front of this weird picture while we look like vampires. Becca's pretty and I'm not.

This is me sitting as the nice-but-very-obese-guy sings "Happy Birthday" to me in Italian. We were eating at Macaroni Grill. I look like a vampire.

This is my sister and Max. Max is so cute!

Me and my mom. Man do I look ugly.

Me again looking ugly. My dad tried to run in to this picture and give me a quick kiss. Didn't quite make it. But I think this may actually be the best picture of me.

On Saturday, I'm goin to Canada. YEA!!! It'll be just me and my mom for a while, but that's good. We don't get to do stuff that involves only us very often. We'll be staying at my grandmother's lodge 'til wednesday, then the rest of my family comes in, including my dad, my sister (Becca), my sister (Ashley), Becca's bf (Tommy), and Ashley's husband (Antti).

Well we haven't done much around here. We went to get some Ice Cream from sonic today. I wanted to go to McDonalds though, to see the cute manager. Ok, I know I'm only 13, but the guy can't be more than 17!!! Or...20. I don't know how old he is!! And I'm not going on a date, so what's the big deal? I remember coming in once and he was working around the...I don't know what to call it, the Kitchen? I came in, and he came to the cash register. I looked at him, smiled, and he looked at me and smiled, and then looked down, still smiling, however he seemed shy. HE WAS TOTALLY BLUSHING!!! I'm not saying that he absolutely thinks I'm hot, or pretty even (maybe he's just desperate) but this guy WAS blushing. It was cute. Anyway, that's my story.

I'm hoping to get my hair cut this friday. I may, I may not.

Ok, I'm on to watching Everybody Loves Raymond.

Thanks rainriver!

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

I like these quizzes. I think I'm going to do a few more.

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

Well, I haven't really dated a lot and I'm not anywhere near the age to get married, but I do know that I want to get married when I'm older and that I want to find the perfect man!

It's been a little while since I've written. Oh well, there's not much to tell. I'm back in school now (noooooooooooooo!!!!), I do like all my teachers (they're really funny and nice), and band's good, along with Jazz Band.

Oh, yesterday we were in our Junior Thespians class where we had to get in to groups of two (and one group of 3) and create a short play. My friend (Kelsi) and I did a pretty good scene. We were "fighting" in the scene (lol!). I actually began to crack up in the middle because one person in the audience (class) started making funny faces. And then one group came on and they were doing a fishing scene, and on of the girls was the fish, so they pretended they were "reeling" her in (by the way, they were sitting on a table) and so when they got her on the table they were like "Oh, it's a big one!" and then the table broke!!! They came crashing to the floor! It was sooo funny. I guess u just had to be there, though.

Ok, when I went to Jazz band camp a couple of months ago, I was placed in the same jazz band as this one guy from my school. And Every time I'd walk in to the room he'd yell "HEY MEREDITH!" even if the teacher was talking. Drove me crazy. And then my friend started saying "He likes you, I know it." I didn't believe her. Then when school came around, I found out he's in my Jazz Band. (Well, I kinda' knew. You don't go to Jazz band Camp and not join the school's Jazz Band. Duh!) Well, I found out he likes to annoy the crap out of me ALL the time.

Ok, so I told one of my friends (yesterday) about him and Jazz camp. Then she said "Well, maybe you should think about him." I was so surprised by that!!! ANd then another one of my friends comes up and I told her what my first friend said. And she goes "He is kinda cute." I was like "GUYS!!!" So I did think about him, and I discovered-instead of hating him-I have a huge crush on him. Now it's hard to stop thinking about him. He keeps talking to me, annoying me, saying dumb stuff to me...It's weird. Today,after school, his friends were taking pictures of him, and he comes up behind me and says "Don't take a picture of me, take one of Meredith" and I said "NO!". And then he tapped on my shoulder, so I turned around and he was standing right behind me, like 10-12 inches from my face. He was just staring at me! It was creepy. And I was like "Why are u standing so close" and then his friend came right up behind me and shook me from side to side. I feaked out! I don't like it when people sneak up behind me.

Then the guy I like took my lock! I was trying to get stuff from my band locker, when he took my lock. He then went outside and walked away, while I was still shoving stuff in to my basket. I ran outside and stopped him. I begged him to give it back. He was like "I don't have it! What lock?" He was being such a jerk. He finally told me he threw it by the door.

Man, I wish he did like me. I would really like him to be my bf. That'd be soooooooooo.....amazing.

He didn't say much to me... I don't understand. I tried to talk to him, but...well I didn't really try much, but usually he talks to me. I don't understand. Usually he makes some joke with me, or tries to open my band locker, but he didn't do that. He was just...quiet. At the end of school, he talked a little, but not much.

I asked him a while ago if he would be my bf, but he didn't say anything. Actually I got his friend to ask for me, but I saw him ask. (No I'm not asking him! I'm too scared.) But he didn't say anything, and that was a week ago!! He still hasn't said anything. What's going on? Did I do something wrong? I've been acting normal around him, so what did I do wrong? Or what went wrong? I JUST NEED AN ANSWER!!! GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

I just got my expander out!!! It's awesome!!! I can feel the roof of my mouth again!!! No more metal crap in my mouth, and no more having a hard time swallowing and chewing!!! It feels good!

I emailed my friend Trae, or old friend Trae. He hasn't emailed me back yet though. Oh well.

You Are Likely a Third Born

At your darkest moments, you feel vulnerable. At work and school, you do best when you're comparing things. When you love someone, you tend to like to please them. In friendship, you are loyal to one person. Your ideal careers are: sales, police officer, newspaper reporter, inventor, poet, and animal trainer. You will leave your mark on the world with inventions, poetry, and inspiration.

                                                       I guess that's kinda true. I'm the third born under my mom, but not my dad.

Your Ideal Relationship is Casual Dating

Maybe you're looking for love... But mostly you're looking for fun. You could get serious with the right person. For now, though, you're enjoying playing the field.

                                          That's true right now. The marriage one wasn't so true, since I wasn't ready to marry.

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest: You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth. At Your Lowest: You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked. In Love: You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve. How You're Attractive: You are very affectionate and inspire trust. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Respected?"

                                             You bet! That's so true!!

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion. Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu.. Your convictions are strong and unwavering. You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

                                                You bet!!

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama. Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time... But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you. You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

                                               Sure, I'll buy it.

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

                             Wow, that totally describes me!!! Creepy...

You're a Shy Kisser

You *do* love to kiss, once your comfortable with it And that means knowing the person you're kissing pretty well You usually don't make the first move when it comes to making out But you've got plenty of intensity in return

                                              Hehe, so true!!

You Are a Chick Rocker!

You're living proof that chicks can rock You're inspired by Joan Jett and the Donnas And when you rock, you rock hard (Plus, you get all the cute guy groupies you want!)

                                               I'm actually not that interested in rock, but if I were, I guess that would be me!

Your IQ Is 130

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

                                             Oh, so true!!!!

                                  Thanks rainriver....again!!!!

Ok, I'm sry but I had to add these!!!

Your Musical Tastes Match: Jennifer Garner

http://click.linksynergy.com/fs-bin/click?id=CkIfgYlVpZA&offerid=78941.454939221&type=10&subid=

                                           That is so weird!!! She's my favorite actress...actually she and Natalie Portman are. I can't choose between them!!! They're both wonderful!

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting. You focus on living a quality life. You're not easily impressed with novelty. Yet, you easily impress others.

                                                  Yup, my favorite kind!!

You Are 19 Years Old

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

                                            Ya, I guess that's true.

You Are 30% Weird

Not enough to scare other people... But sometimes you scare yourself

                            HEHEHEHE!!! I kept doing this one until I got it low enough!! I'm sure that just raised my "Weird Meter" by 30%. HAHAHA!!!

Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others. You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around. The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it. Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

                              I like that talent!!!

Sry rainriver, I just keep stealing your blogthings don't I?

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get. You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them. The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase. You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away. You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance. Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't! You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors. Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor. You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

AHHHH!!!! I have NJHS elections tomorrow! I'm running for president, and I still haven't finished my speech! ahhhhhhhhhh!

Logan kept stealing my lock. I was kinda annoyed by it. oh well...glad I'm over him...

I can't wait till a month from now!!! I get to see jimmy! only....33 days to go!!!

Wahhhh! I was in 5 pictures for the yearbook today! 5! Jazz band, honors band, Jr. Thespians, NJHS, and FPS/CMPS. I had to run back and forth between my classes to the GYM. Grrrr. I almost broke a fire extinguisher today. LOL! It was hilarious. Well, we were walking back from our band picture, and Logan started pushing me in to the wall, while I had my (fragile!) sax with me, and then Billman pushed me, and then T.J. pushed Logan in to Billman in to me in to the fire extinguisher on the wall. It hurt!

I stayed after school today to practice my sax, but there weren't any practice rooms left to practice in. Oh well. So I just sat there in the band hall and listened to the flutes play their select and region band music. It was great...

Ok, during English, Mrs. King was talking about Flowers for Algernon and mentally chalenged people and the meaning of an I.Q. test. And she talks in a really soft voice. Like, she's never raised her voice at all! ANd she talked for the whole period. I was about to fall asleep! So was everyone else. The kid behind me (Michael) actually fell asleep. He does that a lot...

One of my friends (Susanna) from Finland who's been living on my block for a few years, left to go back to Finland today. It was sad. We had a party for her during advisory. I wasn't all that sad at first. Then, when school was out, we were still in our 8th period classroom and we were all saying goodbye to her. I was sad, but stil not as sad as I probably should have been...I wasn't crying or anything, that's what I mean. And then I saw my friend, Ye-Jee, and she was like (I forget exactly what she said, but it went somethin like this) "Meredith, I feel bad for you. First her, and then I'm gonna be gone at the end of the year." And then a tear fell down Ye-Jee's face. She was crying! I was so surprised by that... neither her or I was that good of friends with Susanna, we'd known her for a long while though...

and then I felt really bad. Ye-Jee was like, don't feel bad think happy thoughts. (Yeah, like that ever works). So I had to go to the band hall and I was putting my sax together (for sectionals) and she left. ANd then, I couldn't stop myself. I began to cry. I had to run outside so nobody would see me, but that wasn't smart because all of the football players saw me then.

It wasn't just the fact that Susanna was gone, but it was also the realization of how hard it's going to be to let Ye-Jee go when she leaves at the end of the year...

ahhhh! Too much sadness....I've got to go...

Well today was actually good. Not a lot happened, but it was still good.

There's a new girl in my grade. Already we're pretty good friends. Her names Justine...or Faith....or Shelly...I'm actually not sure. I think her real name's Faith Justine Shelly. That's like the perfect girl name because it's 3 girl names in one full name, so u could be called by either one. I think she's a lot smarter than all of us and a better musician than all of us because she made region band last year (which is REALLY good) with her clarinet and her old school was already working on the periodic table in science, so....ya. And she told me her mom knew a lot of languages and played 16 instruments in high school! Ok let me see if I can name 16 instruments: Coronet, alto sax, tenor sax, flute, alto flute, baritone flute, trumpet, tuba, trombone, clarinet, bass clarinet, contra-bass clarinet, euphonium, guitar, bass guitar, piano! Yay! I did it!!! 16! But once u know one of the woodwind instruments, the others come easier, and the same goes for the brass instruments.

Jazz band was good, Honors band was DUMB!!! Thespians, we worked on our lip syncs for the speech tournament that's coming up. English was...tiring. In S.S. we just listened to my teacher go on about...well what else? S.S.

My friend and I have decided to take on the names of Disney princesses. I'm Sleepin Beauty. Kelli's Cinderella, Ye-Jee's Bell, Annie's Snow White, Maria's Jasmine, and Sheila's Ariel. Yay! I remember my sister did something like that in high school. Actually, it was more like there was a buch of girls who were obsessed with the Disney princesses and just decided to name my sister "Tinker Bell". They even made her take an oath. That's sad....

Logan called me a retard. I feel bad....NOT!!! If any body, he's the retard... I was like "What's with the hostilities?" But when he said it, it was out of the blue, like he just passed me and was like "Meredith, you're a retard!" the jerk...

o well, I just rambled on and wasted your time. Sry

edit: 8 days until I go to the band thing and....see you-know-who!

Ummm...well today was actually a very good day!!! I had 3 tests today, and I think I did good on all of them! YAY!! That Justine girl bugs the crap out of me!!! She tried to get me to help her cheat on the science test!! I was like "Hell no!" So maybe she isn't as smart as I thought she was...oh well.

Um, Jazz band was fun. We played something weird called Woodchoppers Ball. It's really boring though. Everybody was like "Oh this is going to be an awesome song! I remember jazz band played it last year!" but then they began to play the song and now they're like "Ummm, oops. This isn't the same song." It sux! It's so boring...I wish I didn't have to play it.

In regular band we're playin a new song called "The March of the Wooden Soldiers" I think that's what it's called. I like it...but it's really simple. We didn't have such simple songs last year. Last year we played the Nutcracker. What's with Mr. Pritchard (band instructor)?

I was supposed to go to the Ennis football game tonight with a friend, but that idea was shot down. o well *sigh*

tomorrow, I'm doing some volunteer stuff at my old elementary school. They're having this thing called "Carnival of Stars" where they have a bunch of games and stuff and food, it's kinda like a huge fundraiser. I'm going with a friend. You know, it was mainly for PALS to volunteer, but I think that's kinda stupid. I mean, why not just invite students who actually went to that school? Most of the PALS didn't even go to our school!

grrrrrrrr....Logan made me late after school. He kept stealing my stuff, and locking my band locker (even though I still had stuff in there). He wouldn't stop until 20 minutes after school let out. He stole my lunch box, my lock, my sax, my gum, my bag, he would steal my stuff and then throw it back in to my locker and then lock it!!! I'm so angry! I was trying to get out of there because Ye-Jee need to go to Mrs. Costephens room to get stuff. She left without me!! I think I made her mad. I really was trying to get out of there, but Logan (the ass he is)...HE WAS BEING SO MEAN!!! And then my mom got pissed at me after I didn't come out til 3:30, and usually she shows up by 3:15. But I got Logan back. I stole his lock and threw it in to Ye-Jee's locker...hahahaha! I couldn't throw it in to mine because he knows my combo and he would know it would be me who stole it.

U know, there was this weird moment between us... I don't want to make a big deal, but he...I dunno. We were bumping in to each other in the hall, on purpose, (and he's a lot stronger than me, so he's able to shove me in to the wall and I'm only able to shove him a few feet) and there was this one moment where we were just walking and we looked at each other, and there was this long stare between us. I said "What?" and he was like "Nothing" and he shoved me in to the lockers. lol. He was probably just trying to distract me while he thought of how to hurt me next. Grrrr...I need to stop talking about him because...well, I just need to. sry about that.

edit: 7days left!

Ok, so I went to that volunteer thing and had the worst time eva! But then again, it was kinda fun. I was doing absolutely nothing. But that lady who was supposed to be handling the volunteers was a complete moron! She kept yelling at us for no reason and ordering us around. We were just like SHUT UP!!!

I ran in to Ryan! Ugh, I didn't realize how much I missed him!! I told him that, and he was like "Awww I missed u too. And the neighborhood." (He moved away a little while ago.) We talked for the longest time and I think I bored him, but he told me he had fun. I doubt that. Then I had to work at this booth where you throw these toilet paper rolls in to the toilet (It's actually really funny!) and I had to hand the rolls to the kids who were throwing them and Ryan wasn't even supposed to be volunteering but the person who was running the booth made him collect tickets. I felt so bad for him! I didn't know that would happen. And then he had to leave. I apologized and gave him a hug and now I'm paying him $5 because he deserves it and I feel really bad.

Today sucked...

10 Favorites

Favorite color: Baby Blue

Favorite food: Broccoli Pockets

Favorite band: Fall Out Boy!!! Thank u rainriver !

Favorite movie: Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith

Favorite sport: Marching Band. It is an official sport now!

Favorite Season: fall/winter

Favorie day of the week: Sunday. Desperate Houswives and Grey's Anatomy is on that night!!!

Favorite Ice Cream flavor: Neopolitan

Favorite time of day: 3:10 on weekdays (because that's when I ACTUALLY get to see and talk to all of my friends), 7:00 on weekends.

9 Currents:

Current Mood: Mixed; neutral, depressed, happy

Current taste: *confused look* saliva? lol!

Current clothes: Brown wrap-around, teal tank, blue-jean capris

Current sonic: I'm confused...

Current toenail color: manicure; white and natural

Current time: 10:28

Current surroundings: home; parents room

Current thoughts: I wish I hadn't pulled Ryan along with me everywhere. I feel so bad!

8 Firsts:

First Best friend: Ryan

First Kiss: Ryan ( I did kiss Doug when I was younger, but that doesn't really count. I didn't know what I was doing.)

First screen name: Grapeweb5 ( I didin't choose it!)

First pet: Fish; Cleo

First Piercing: I was 11 in Canada. I got my ears pierced! I almost passed out afterwards....

First crush: Ryan. Wow I've mentioned him a lot, haven't I?

First music: Ummm. My first CD was Spice Girls. I still luv them!

First car: I don't drive.

7 lasts

Last cigarette: EWWWW! SUch a nasty habit! I don't smoke and never will.

Last drink: Dr. Pepper. It's the pepper upper!

Last car ride: Yesterday when my mom took me home from school.

Last Kiss: Gosh, it was Ryan! Oh wait...does this include family members? I mean, I don't like makeout with my family, but we kiss each other on the cheek.

Last time you said 'I Love You': earlier today to...you guessed it: Ryan. It was more of a friendly "Luv ya!" sort of I love you.

Last phone call: Ryan....

Last Cd Played: Josh Groban

6 Have You Ever...

Have you ever dated one of your best guy friends: yes...Ryan in the 6th grade.

Have you ever broken the law: yes, prank calls, shoplifted a tiny teddy bear.

Have you ever gone sky diving: No

Have you ever gone skinny dipping: LOL! yes

Have you ever been on tv: yes! There was a news report on a helicopter that came to our school. You could see the back of me! LOL!

Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know: no

5 things

1 thing you're wearing: silver hoop earrings

1 thing you've done today: volunteered

1 thing you can hear right now: the T.V. Entertainment Tonight is on.

1 thing you can't live without: my friends, ALL OF THEM!!

1 thing you do when you're bored: surf the web

4 places you've been in the past 24 hours:

1.Grapevine Elementary School

2. Home

3. Mindsay.com

4. Xanga.com

3 choices

1.Black or white: black

2.hot or cold: cold

3.gentle or rough: gentle

2 people you love

1. Oh there are so many...ummm...I love my family but, this person really stands out: Becca

2. ALL OF MY FRIENDS!!!

1 thing you want to do

Go to the football game on Friday. I want it to come sooner! I want to see my friends!!!!!!

AHHHH!!! Today was weird! In jazz band, we were working individually on our select/region music and we got in practice rooms. So I was playing on my own in the practice room (which is a REALLY tiny room that's soundproof) and T.J. (a trumpet) came in and listened to me play and he tried to sit in the same chair as me!!! He claimed he was trying to get a better view of my music, but I dunno... it was weird. And then he continuously stared at me and was really close up to me. And then he gave me a hug...twice!!! I was like "What the crap?!" He's never done that before.

My friend, Ye-Jee, came up with a treasure hunt that goes around the whole school, so we're all going crazy around the school trying to find all the items and clues. I haven't found anything yet....

Dude!!! It's...2 days till friday!!! OMG!! I've been waiting for this day for a long time, and it's almost here! Seriously. I've been waiting for this band trip for about year and a half now. I've thought about it every day...

I think Logan kinda' likes Ye-Jee. But I know she doesn't like him. He's been saying some weird stuff around her that just gives me that idea. Like, last week Ye-Jee was like "Gosh Meredith! You're so mean! Who am I going to shopping with now?" And Logan was like "Ooo! I'll go with you!" which was strange, and today he tried to go through her stuff and he stole her shoe.... and then I stole his hat and he kept whacking me on the arm with the shoe. Ok, I'm sry, but Logan and Ye-Jee would not make a good couple. Logan's just too...like, crazy and out there, while Ye-Jee (howeva a little crazy) is nice and too smart for him. Actually, I don't think any girl would make a cute couple with him. I talk about him a lot don't I? I don't mean to, it's just that he stands out as a friend. A VERY, very crazy friend.

So, ya. Just waiting till Friday band thingy. I talk about it when it's done.

Select band. Alto Saxophone. 1st chair. That's all I'm gonna' say.

YEA!!!

This will be short.

Today was fine. Just chillin. Performed my humorous interp. and my dramatic interp. Everybody broke out in applause afterward. I was soooo happy!!

Oh, and my sisters bf said I'm beginning to look just like my sis now. THAT'S AN INSULT!!! LOL I'm jk

You know what's really weird?

http://www.falconbeach.ca/index.aspx

Click on the cast, then go to the Ephraim Ellis guy, and a picture will come up with that guy and a tower in the background. My great-uncle climbed that tower when he was younger, and that tower is in the town my Grandmother lives in. We go by it every year... 

Ahhh!!! I had my speech tournament yesterday. I was entered in Dramatic Interp., Lip Sync, and Humorous Interp. I didn't do good on Drama. or Lip, but I made it to the semi-finals and then the finals on Humorous and made 4th place! Ok, so it's not 3rd, 2nd, or 1st but since it was my first time to ACTUALLY act in front of people, I think that's pretty good. Yea!

Ok, so I got up at 5:30 and left to Cross timbers at 6:15, so I was so freakin tired.... Oh and it sux when 30 minutes after you leave your house and your hair suddenly becomes wavy and looks like crap...greatness.

(Trump's House of Wings. If you watched SNL last night, you'd understand. Gotta' love those chickens...)

Yesterday was one of the best days I've ever had. I think I've actually gained a lot of experience with this, and I got to know Ms. Laney (our theatre teacher) better! She's so awesome!She's freakin hilarious and honestly she feels kinda like a sister to me. She actually told me I'm her favorite student and how she knows that I have a passion for this and that I'm actually trying my hardest. She even stole me a brownie from the judges room. He-he. THANX MS. LANEY!!! She really is the coolest teacher I've EVER had. And that's not sucking up, that's truth.

After we were done with our performances and we were waiting for the results, Kelsi Holland, John Miles, and I put on Ciara's "Goodies" and John lip synced and danced to  Ludacris's part and Kelsi and I did Ciara's part and were dancing, and just having so much fun. Kelsi and I were like "Work it girl! Shake it" to each other. We were laughing so hard. The Cross Timbers kids like gathered around us and watched and were like "we're your audience" and were cheering us on. But a lot of the their girls didn't. I think they thought we were sluts or somethin. O well. We just had so much fun...!

Oh there was one part where Ms. Laney was all like "All right guys, there's trash on the floor you need to pick it up." And I was joking around and said "Yeah, white trash." And I said that to John, and then he laughed so hard and told Ms. Laney and she was like "Meredith, don't talk about yourself that way." And I was like "Whoa! My respect for you just went from here to here. NO, it broke the floor and kept on going!" I was making a hand gesture at the time where my hand was at eye level and then went down to the floor. Ms. Laney got all mad and chased after me while she tried to put my hand back up, but we laughed it off.

Ok, I'm gonna go now...

SEE YA!

You are a Snow Angel! You live in freezing
climates yet you embrace it. Your essence is
ice of course since you live amongest it. You
love all sports that envolve snow or you at
least like most. But if you haven't tried a
snow sport than you must for it is the activity
you belong in. Embrace a slurpee!

What Beautiful Angel Are You: Test Two
brought to you by Quizilla

Stole this from Jade-Elizabeth. HE-HE! She always finds the really cool quizzes... 

I really don't have anything to say right now, so I'll write later...

see ya'

Sry I haven't written in so long. I don't think anybody really cares though...

Region band stuff today. I made honors band, 2nd chair. I'm happy cause now I don't have to turn in practice cards for the rest of the semester, I get to go to Laser Quest, and I'm in the band so that means I'm awesome and nobody can say anything else!!!!!

Andrew made 6th chair wind ensemble. Yea! I knew he would do good!

I don't know about the rest of my friends though. I wonder if Kevin made it... Nobody's called me yet so, I dunno'. I hope Ye-Jee either made Honors or Wind Ensemble, as well as the rest of my friends.

Wow, I just had an hour-and-a-half conversation with Jimmy. People have a lot to say when they haven't spoken to each other in a month, and before that about a year...

Ahhh!!! I'm so tired! Night-night!

I'm sry, but I thought this joke was funny! The end's a little disturbing though...

On the Way to Prison

Three convicts were on the way to prison. They were each allowed to take one item with them to help them occupy their time while incarcerated.

On the bus, one turned to another and said, "So, what did you bring?"

The second convict pulled out a box of paints and stated that he intended to paint anything he could. He wanted to become the "Grandma Moses of Jail."

Then he asked the first, "What did you bring?"

The first convict pulled out a deck of cards and grinned and said, "I brought cards. I can play poker, solitaire, gin, and any number of games."

The third convict was sitting quietly aside, grinning to himself. The other two took notice and asked, "Why are you so smug? What did you bring?"

The guy pulled out a box of tampons and smiled. He said, "I brought these."

The other two were puzzled and asked, "What can you do with those?"

He grinned and pointed to the box and said, "Well according to the box, I can go horseback riding, swimming, roller-skating...."

I found this today. Steven Tucker...one of my sister's first boyfriends. I remember just last year talking to him last year...

Sry I haven't written in a while. I just don't have much to say right now. I've got to go to school tomorrow. Hate that. Watching Grey's Anatomy right now. I love this show...

Gonna' talk to Ben. I'll see if he has anything to say. It's probably just a weird coincidence and means nothing.

I really like this Icon. That's why I put it up.

I wanna learn how to do html stuff, like to do xanga layouts and such. Can someone tell me an easy site to learn it from or teach me?

P.S. I like the new layout, it's freakishly awesome...

My parents gave Romeo, my dog, away today. (Notice how I said my parents, 

not me.)

I didn't even get to say goodbye

Have u ever been so pissed and angry and sad that u collapsed to the floor right in front of your parents? Ya that was me.

I lost my mechanical pencil. It was from Korea and was pink and I got it from my best friend who's going to be moving after the end of the year. I had it for a day and I lost it. I think my math teacher's son stole it and it sux and I want him to die!!! I remember him playing with my little bag that my pencil was in and he tried to hide it from me. This sux!!! It was like the coolest pencil ever and I'm angry.

Ok weird. This guy on my xanga we've been talking only a lil' bit. We just leave some random comments to each other on xanga and now he wants to meet me and hang out with me somtime. Creepy...I barely even know this guy and he's trying to get my cell phone number. He already gave me his! ooooo, I don't know what to do exactly. He seems nice and he's not creepy or anything but I don't want to just be like "Get the F*&%k away from me!" but I don't necessarily want to hang out with him yet. But he does seem like the kind of guy who would go around to a bunch of girls and just start flirting with them and shit. I hate those guys...

Wow it's really weird cause we were just talking about this stuff in english and the "Don't meet with strangers off of the internet" crap.

Oh, I know it's been sooooo long. I just don't have much to say. It's winter break and I've done absolutely nothing, well except party at x-mas. I don't really want to hang out with my friends. They're fun but I just need a break from them. Besides, I'm going to be seeing them a lot at school.

Our Christmas tree fell over yesterday. It was really bad. We had to clean up the broken ornaments which were all the really pretty ornaments and we took a couple of hours to put away ornaments and figure out which light bulbs were messed up and we fixed those. I finished knitting the scarf (at 2 a.m. last night) with the wool I had just gotten on xmas. It was great....

I'm getting a new phone by the end of the week. A xmas present that didn't get in by xmas. I saw a picture of it's model. It's pretty nice. It's not a razr but it's a camera phone and it's nice.

We're going to see "A Tuna Christmas" on New Years Eve.

All right I'l talk later. Bye

What would've happened if...

1). Kyle (Reese) didn't get shot? Would he have been alive to look after John? Would Sarah have been so crazy later on? Would Kyle have married Sarah?

2). Anita hadn't lied about Maria being dead? Would Tony have gotten shot? If not, would Tony and Maria have lived happily ever after?

3). Qui-Gon defeated Maul? Would he have stopped Anakin later on?

4). Wesley had never left Buttercup to go on that trip? Would Buttercup never have met the evil Prince who planned to kill her to start a war?

5). Audrey II turned out to be a good plant and ate vegetables?

6). Chihiro had stopped her parents from crossing over to the spirit world and eating all of the food?

7). Jenny had stayed with Forrest?

8). Angel never died? What would happen to Collins if Angel lived?

9). Bruce's parents never died? Would the city be better with them alive? Would Bruce end up becoming the alter ego anyway?

10). Isolde was never promised to the king?

These are all questions I have asked about movies. Can you figure out which movie is which?

Once upon a time...

   there once was a boy in college...  

He liked this girl...     But, he was really shy, all he could do was be her friend.

He would always find reasons to be where she was.

Whether it was on her balcony...      

Or at the park.  

      One day...somethng happened.

Something that the girl or the boy never thought would ever happen.               

 and it scared her, SO much.

She realized too late though, she was too far in.  

It was too late, and she was so happy. .

She let go of her doubts, her fears. She just plain let go.

                             And so did he.

               One morning, a year later, like so many other mornings, the girl took a bikeride from their apartment to the park.         

                       "I need the exercise" she would always say. The boy always laughed.

She didn't wake him up that morning, he had been out late for work. She made some coffee and kissed him on the forehead.

 The weather was perfect that morning. She always loved the morning mist. And it wasn't too bright yet either.

She never made it to the park.

She didn't even make it past the first curve in the road.

She had never liked that curve in the road, it was a blind curve. She was always careful around it. Always.

It wasn't her fault.

It wasn't the driver's either.  

                                           It was an accident. A freak accident. She didn't even have time to realize what happened.

She was enjoying her morning and suddenly she was laying on her back. .In pain. So much pain.

She called out the boy's name.  She wanted to kiss him one more time. Hold him, feel loved one more time.

She couldn't hear what the man was saying, he was staring at her frantically, all she could understand was "hold on".

hold on...to what? He wasn't there to hold.

He was back in bed, he was only a block away... with coffee by his alarm clock, dreaming happy things.

  The girl was so incredibly sad. Why? They were so happy, she was SO happy. Why now.

There were a bunch of flashing red and blue lights. More people were gathering above her.

                                                    As she took her last gasps for air she

                                                    closed her eyes and thought "i love you,

                                                    i love you, i love you" It echoed in her brain,

                                                    she only hoped he would hear it.

That's all  she wanted.                                                

And with that one wish, she breathed her last breath.

                                     So it's spring break now! I don't really have any plans. It's...swell. I'm going to try to hang out with my friends as much as possible though.